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Monday, December 27, 2004
i dunno y but i cldnt get to slp last nite. mayb it's cos i'm nervous abt my 1st day of work, mayb it's cos i slpt too much (i only woke up at 1.30pm yday) the day b4. haha think my biological clocks but screwed upside down from all the late nites n not slping at all on christmas eve. but anws, i gotta screw it back to normal soon if not i'm really screwed yah? i'll go to work luking lyk a panda, do things lyk a sloth, mayb slp lyk a baby on my job, den get slaughtered lyk a chicken by my boss whoever he/she is. haha excuse me if i sound retarded or crazy. must b the lack of slp :þ

anw i was talking to my mum, or rather she was talking to me abt work ethics n all the do's n dont's from her work experience. think she mayb even more excited than i am abt my going to work. hahaz she told me q happily last nite dat i can finally earn money for her instead of taking hers. so cute. my mum n dad r getting cuter nowadays n they say end their smses with "love, ur cute mum" n "love, ur cute dad" respectively :D

i think i'v been v happy for the past few days from all the outings n gatherings with old frens n close frens n i kinda feel lyk i'v grown up in some ways. i dun feel so sian abt things anymore, i dun feel as angry as i used to when my bro or sis irritate me, i dun feel so repulsive of things n pple dat i used to dislike, n most importantly, i think i'v learnt to b happy. mayb it sounds weird but i always felt dat i'v nv been really happy in my life. dat's has changed tho.. after dis few days, i'v come to realise some things n got enlightened abt some issues by some other little encounters with pple arnd me. dis quote sent to me by m1 just popped up in my mind.. haha

It isn't what you have, or who you are, or where you are, or what you are doing that makes you happy or unhappy. It is what you think about.
- Dale Carneigie

i lyk such quotes. mayb cos some r so inspiring, some encouraging, some just sounds nice, n some of which i can relate to. yup, i think i'v grown up :D hahaz my dad just gave me a red packet n wished me gd luck for work. so sweet rite. kinda felt lyk crying for a moment. i love my family alot, perhaps now more than i used to. i just feel dat i'v changed somewhat cos i really do feel different inside tho i cant explain it. it feels damn gd. sorta lyk i'm a caterpillar dat has changed into a butterfly, if u get wad i mean. hahaha okay gtg get ready for work now. wish me luck!

haha i just got a job at CPF Board as admin asst! hahaha so exciting. my 1st job :D $5.50/hr for now but it'll increase to $6/hr after i get my 'A' level results. start work tmr so i gotta hurry n buy some office wear n borrow some later. hahaz no time to slack arnd anymore but i really nid the money since i'm broke so just accept the job offer lah!

Sunday, December 26, 2004

dis is going to b q a long post cos i have been so busy being up n abt dis christmas dat i havent had the time even to touch the computer. hahaz if yq's rite, my last christmas eve was spent with her n ry - 2 of my bestest frens since sec sch :D anw we were just roaming the crowded streets of our (shd i say "boring") orchard road where everywhere, every1 was spraying the coloured foamy stuff on every1 who walked past. den we ended up sitting near the escalator in taka for awhile b4 trooping over to ry's hse to stay overnite.

dis yr's christmas eve was different! haha spent it with peiling who's my oldest best fren since p4, where we met up after her work n rushed to tampines mall to catch Shutter cos it was the only place with a suitable timing for the movie since it was out so long ago. the movie was really gd i tot. haha i dun rem screaming in any other horror movies so yah, it was scary esp when the ghost keeps appearing out of nowhere. with her disgusting face, she can just abt scare any1 to death by appearing suddenly man.. :( haha

anw, pei n i den hurried to PS to try catch The Incredibles cos we havent watched it too. but the tix were sold out so we went for a shopping spree instead :D bought 3 tops, a pair of jeans, a tube n an arm band. haha spent q abit of money but my mum was paying lah since i swiped her card. she told me to go buy some clothes so i was just listening to my mum. haha met dis girl who's our age at 1 of the shops we patronised n i was, frankly speaking, q attracted to her in the sense dat she luked v familiar tho i cant rem where i'v met her if i did meet her prior to dat day. she luks lyk the type of person whom i'll b v close to, simply cos i lyk her. she seems to b my kind of fren, if u get wad i mean. haha

we den went off to attend mass at my church with my family n over to my hse to put down my stuff n get on with the pretence dat i was going to stay over at her hse while she told her parents she was staying over at mine, so we cld just hang out the whole nite. after all, it's christmas eve! who welcomes christmas at home?! hahaha or doing guard duty for dat matter, huh shifu? ;P think we luked rather crazy on the way to my hse cos we were talking abt sad stuffs n started crying n laughing on the bus. but it felt q gd to do dat with a gd old fren :) after dat we had a (as pei put it) limo, courtesy of TIBS, to chauffeur us to chijmes were we met up with moses n arden.

there were cover charges of lyk 25bux at the pubs so we walked from there to clarke quay area, singing, laughing n wishing random pple "MERRY CHRISTMAS!" the whole way. ended up in Rav til abt 4plus where we talked, danced, played 'hei zhi ma bai zhi ma' n 'cai quan' rather unsuccessfully. hahaz had lots of fun with them tho my beloved old fren n my 'ginah' psch classmate made me dance with my dear teammate. felt q paiseh but it was nice :P moses brought along his digicam so we took some photo's along the way. anw there was a gay party at Rav n we saw some gay couples.. q farny cos they were in qing lu zhuang n stuff.

we left n went to eat at dis place with lotsa bruce lee photos all over the place, den walked to esplanade where we sat at a table n sang songs in the dark cos there werent any lighting in the area. pei fell aslp 1st n subsequently, so did moses n arden. i wasnt slpy so i went to walk abt n sat down near the river admidst groups of frens n couples. was enjoying the breeze n night scenery of the city area when the 3 joined me n we waited for the sun to rise. haha in the end we cldnt c the sun rising from where we were n were all dozing off. when the sky was bright we found the 7-eleven in citylink n bought drinks den took a bus to bt batok where we were planning to have breakfast. haha in the end we all conked out on the bus n were so slpy we all just went home to slp instead.

slpt alittle den had to wake up cos i was to meet yq to catch Meet The Fockers. haha damn farny show. love the baby n the dog cos they'r so cute. the dog's called moses n it got flushed down the toilet by the cat n it ended up with blue fur. n the baby's super farny n damn cute when it says "assshooole"! hahaha it's so cool to haf such a funky 1st word :D ry joined us after the movie for dinner at Sakae where we stuffed our faces with a huge plate of Joyful Sakae sushi set. haha i cldnt finish my share so i secretly put 1 of my sushi on ry's side n she ate it for me. haha thx deary! ;þ the mochi thingy was q nice but so tiny.. mayb gd things come in small portions. haha anw we went home early cos yq had to work the next day.

met peiling at yishun for The Incredibles on 26th Dec (happy birthday mum!) afternoon. we were q bent on watching it n it was v nice! no wonder every1 i asked told me it's gd. hahaz i tot it was kinda lyk an all-in-one movie cos there were bits of humour, romance, action n kiddish horror all wrapped up in 1 animated movie. it so cool to possess super powers n b superheros but too bad, such things n pple lyk X-Men dun exist in real life :( but den again, mayb it's all for the better dat God created us people the way we r cos pple will definitely abuse the powers given to us.

ry joined us again n we shopped arnd b4 pei went home cos she was tired. ry n i shopped alittle more, had dinner den went to the fun fair outside orchard mrt to go for the rides. haha we went for a ride called Music Dance n were spun round n round til we got q giddy for awhile. haha but it was fun tho the rides arent v cheap. will go for the other rides when i recover from bankruptcy. no money left after all the days of shopping n movies, dat's y i'm stuck at home with so much time to type such a long post. hahaz wanna go zw's hse to run on the treadmill in the gym, go bowling n watch vcds n dvds with some of my teammates one of dis days b4 he goes to do his NS. haha gd luck to the BOYS who r off to become MEN! :D

it's really nice to spend time with frens n family, esp during festive seasons lyk christmas. the yr's quickly coming to an end in a few days n i hope 2005's going to b a better yr for every1 :) 2003 was q a bad yr for me esp the 2nd half of the yr tho things did started to luk up towards the end. 2004 saw many things come to an end, many things changing for the better, n some relationships budding n others flowering (for some lyk yq whom i met by coincidence in coffee bean during A's, a 2nd time flowering cos we rekindled our frenship n closeness after abt 1 yr of not being in close contact). my new yr's wish for 2005 will b dat everything goes well, every1 will b safe n happy, n dat all wishes will come true! oh how cld i 4get.. WORLD PEACE! hahaha

to my dearest frens whom i love lyk ry, yq, pei, shifu, peiying, n others whom i do not wan to name (haha) or have 4gotten to mention, just wan u guys to noe dat it is u who bring so much colour into my life. i'm sorry if at times, i appear too aloof, insensitive, or wadeva i'v said or done to make any of u unhappy cos i nv meant it to b so. thx so much for just being part of my life n being there to listen to me complain abt how sian i am n stuffs lidat. there'r many things dat i choose to keep to myself n it's not dat i do not trust u all or anything lyk dat. sumtimes i dun tell u all things dat make me sad n unhappy cos i dun wan any1 of u to b affected by those things or feel sad for me. but dun worry cos i'm strong n i will stay strong no matter wad happens cos i noe pple lyk u guys will b there to help me up if i stumble n fall. i love u guys. i reallyreally do. :)

Wednesday, December 15, 2004

had a 39.8 degree fever yday. haha felt lyk i was cooking myself. also haf a terrible sore throat, flu, cough and headache :( anw i got called up by 3 job agencies 2day. the first wan was v dumb. supposed to b some financial planner n i was thinking "i got so li hai meh?" den she asked for my age n den said i'm too young. diaos. the 2nd job offer need me to b proficient in MS Excel n very unfortunately, i only noe the basics which is not gd enuf. as for the 3rd one, i q stupidly rejected it cos it's only paying $5.50/hr n i'm q fussy abt the pay. n anw it's some data entry thingy. lousy pay, boring job. 4get it. haha

have been online looking for jobs n sending resumes everywhere. hoping to get a job in either a bank or mnc cos got better pay. hahaz pay me at least 6bucks an hr n i'll b happy lah. $5.50 really too low for me. only abt $990 a mth man. wld rather join yy n hy at NYDC if dat's the case. i wan at least $1k a mth! 4 digits nicer. hahaz think i gotta start getting some clothes dat'r suitable for work. q exciting to go to work. but i still need to find one. sux

Thursday, December 09, 2004

got dis from beat's blog. hahaz think it's okay. q typical of the things said of january babies lyk me! those i think r more true r in italics :)

JANUARY:
Stubborn and hard-hearted. Ambitious and serious. Loves to teach and be taught. Always looking at people's flaws and weaknesses. Likes to criticize. Hardworking and productive. Smart, neat and organized. Sensitive and has deep thoughts. Knows how to make others happy. Quiet unless excited or tensed. Rather reserved. Highly attentive. Resistant to illnesses but prone to colds. Romantic but has difficulties expressing love. Loves children. Loyal. Has great social abilities yet easily jealous. Very Stubborn and money cautious.

had prom last nite! haha it was okay lah but i tot the duration was a little too short. yup my ai ren so pretty!!! :D every1 was dressed v nicely, luking gd but my ai ren still the most chio k! oh yah. hey pocky papa! i tot u luked gd too tho u kept doing stupid things over at ur table. but den again, if u dun do stupid things, u arent daniel. haha anw i took q alot of photos so q happy lah. got a bit of yi2 han4 tho.. haiz.. :( but nvm. nvm.. nvm... :(

went zouk with fia, jo, mich, tam, n andrea but left after awhile cos fia n jo wanna leave. it was q okay. kinda lyk the loud music but damn smoky n muchmuchmuch too crowded. anw dis guy who was a little drunk patted mich on the shoulder n wanted to do high5 with her den she "OEI!" damn loud n gave him shock. cldnt help laughing den he high5-ed with me instead. was q amused :)

so bored at home. tmr going tanjong pagar find job agencies with jo n fia. apparently her fren found a 2+k per mth job at the bank. super shuang. i also wan dat's y i'm going to the job agency too! hahaz.. i noe work will b sian, but since hols stay at home or have nowhere nice to go also sian n work got money... y not work? hahaz yup hope i get a gd paying job cos i'm lyk really broke now. bleahs

Sunday, December 05, 2004

haha i was only sick for a day! next day okay liaos. anw, i'm q sun burnt :( went sentosa to play beach vball with yihui, moses, zhi wei n ziyang. hahaz found out a 'secret'! hahahaha was so shocked when i 1st found out i just stoned n smile to myself on the bus. hahaz so unexpected! but okay lah.. later i felt dat it's q cute n sweet. yup cant say much cos it's supposed to b a secret but i bet my teammates wld die to noe. hahahahaha :D anw, lyk i said, i'm q burnt lah sux. now got v obvious tan lines. wear prom dress not so nice alr! but no matter. lyk any1 wld really care. hahaz

deary, vvv sorry abt yday. i also think i'm v stupid but he msged me after dat n i told him i saw him singing but cldnt hear cos of the traffic, n dat by the time i crossed the road, alr over liao so i went home. it wasnt a lie tho it wasnt really the whole truth i guess. bleahs. wadeva lah. i also dowan to think too much abt it liaos. yup

Friday, December 03, 2004

o yah, my laopo got prom 2nite! have fun deary! bet u luk ravishing 2nite! -muacks-

i'm sick!! arghs.. down with the flu. think i 100% caught it from my bro OR my mum. they'v both been sick since halfway thru the A's.. yup unlucky me. haiz.. hope i get better soon. i just hate getting flu ESP if i start developing cough n sorethroat. argh.. tried to slp it off but it doesnt seem to b going away even tho i slept the whole day! i'm really feeling grumpy..

anw, moses told me he n his band r performing at orchard 2day n the next 2 days. but he wasnt v keen on me going to peng2 chang3 cos he said v pai seh n dat watch during prom wld b better. okay lor. dat's if they do get to do a number or two on the day itself. and anw, he also told me ben's playing for them too. shd'v told me from the start cos i wldnt even THINK abt going. okay lah. dat's too exaggerated. but i did have 2nd tots abt going when i knew he was going to b there too. "spoils the band" i tot to myself. yah i'm q evil. SO? bleahs :)

Wednesday, December 01, 2004

haha i have a new funky hairstyle! hahaha went to cut n highlight my hair with yy n jo. v happy abt the way it turned out tho i think i kinda luk lyk a punk. hahahaha yups :D shopped the whole day yday n bought many things! got my prom dress (finally!), prom accessories, sandles, shorts,.. too bad my money supply is limited tho money demand is high. haha.. scarcity - limited resources n unlimited wants. ms ong wld b proud of me. hahaz :) kinda luking 4ward to prom now dat i'v got wad i need :) borrowing shoes from my jnr so i get to save dat bit of money. i wanna buy a backpack cos mine's rotting.. the inside is falling apart :(

anw, s'pore idol's won by taufik. BUT MY ONE N ONLY IDOL IS DAVID YEO! DAVID ROX MY WORLD!!! bleah. i dun care dat he's out a long time ago man, so shut up if u'r going to say dat. i dun care. i really dun. to me, he TRULY rox :David: but okay, sly rox too! he may not'v won but i'm sure he'll b another clay aiken n end up doing vvv well :D yq, dun b sad dear. cheer up! -hugs-

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